I don't want to miss July.

Hey everyone, sadly, I have not made as many blog post's as a wished. Here is your's (and mine's) list of things to blame.

• Google+
• Reddit
• U413
• School
• Straight up Procrastination

Not in any particular order. 

I for a time had a schedule that I followed, I was ready to write in my blog, practice go, learn stuff. etc.

It was solid and it was working well, I think I certainly felt more productive. I think I will do it again, hopefully after next week ends. Here is to me making a new schedule and following it in the future.

A toast to the occasion?

Really though, I think of what I accomplished in that time, when I was really studying, not just school, but go, programming, I was doing project's, I was reading real books, not just math or programming ones. I didn't do as much as I wanted but god damn it is more then I do now.

Thing is my parents don't complain, nobody would. Why?

I'm acing every test, I'm getting the best grades of my life. But at what sacrifice? When is the last programming project I wrote a line for?

How about writing a line in the spec for?

I would be lying to say I have done nothing, but it is trivial compared to what I should be doing, and have done before.

Is it worth it, is I'm really just working on school?

It's my fault though, you saw above, the first part of this post. My reason's made it clear, I have plenty of time to learn. So why don't I?

Is my brain being lazy? Or is it being tired?

I don't believe in such metal limits, at least I don't want to until they are proven. If I can do school and work on programming for 10 min in a week, there is no conceivable reason I cannot work on it for 20, and so on, until I realize there is no reason I could not be working at full speed right now. Writing in my blog, posting on Youtube, all that good stuff.

So no, it's a cop-out and I know it. I'm not sacrificing my life for school, my lazy subconscious is making that excuse. 

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That said, I can't seem to even spend full time on school, I am always doing things last minute, getting things done only just before time. And cramming before tests.

It's working for now, I don't want to find out how long it will.

My old quotes file.

A long time ago, I used gmail drafts to save data, like links and such. (I now use ubuntu one, dropbox or my own server).

Below is a old quotes file I found, thought it would be interesting to share it. It's at least 4 years old.

I have marked in bold the quotes that I particularly liked, upon reading it again. 

The only "intuitive" interface is the nipple. After that, it's all learned. (Bruce Ediger, bediger@teal.csn.org, in comp.os.linux.misc, on X interfaces.)
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Walking isn't a lost art: one must, by some means, get to the garage.
- Evan Esar
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It could be worse I guess. It could be 10,000 rhinoceroses instead of monkeys.
- Rick
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It is not enough to succeed. Others must fail.
- Gore Vidal
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Talent hits a target no one else can hit; Genius hits a target no one else can see.
- Arthur Schopenhauer
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Sometimes what's right isn't as important as what's profitable.
- Trey Parker and Matt Stone
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The difference between a monk and a philosopher is that a monk spends years trying to clear
his mind by meditation , a philosopher spends years trying to fill it by deep thinking.
- James Mcclain
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In hell you think of how great it would be to relive the worst days of your life.
- James Mcclain
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The opposite of the religious fanatic is not the fanatical atheist but the gentle cynic who cares not whether there is a god or not.
- Eric Hoffer
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Politics is supposed to be the second oldest profession. I have come to realize that it bears a very close resemblance to the first.
- Ronald Reagan
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The future is here. It's just not widely distributed yet. (Favorite of this list)
- William Gibson
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I used to think that the brain was the most wonderful organ in my body. Then I realized who was telling me this.
- Emo Phillips

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Tell me what you think of them, and if you have your own quotes file, share it.

Does this exist, or is this a unique mental disorder I invented?

So, I have *no* idea why this was going through my mind. But I had to write it down.
Considering *how* many mental disorders there are, I figure this *has* to be one, but I have not yet found one in my searches.

So here is a description:

Basically, for every object the person see's, they *have* to give it a name. So, as soon as they focus on something specific, in their mind they hear a name, and when they recognize that object again, they will remember that name. The person likely cannot choose the name that their mind gives the object.  So this means that while they should be able to remember what their friends name are, in their mind they will always hear the original name whenever they recognize their friend. It is like you recognize a face, or remember any other object by it's image, it's just they associate a proper noun to it.


So for this person, every door in his house, his cups(if he can distinguish them apart), his tv, the doornobs, have names.

They are not actively *remembering* these names, they simply *know* when they see the same thing again.

It's like this:
You walk into a denny's, you have to sit in a waiting area, and you notice a scratch on the wall. You look at it while you wait.

Then 2 days later, you go to the denny's again, and sit in the same place, you will certainly remember the scratch as the one you looked at before. A person with this disorder is the same, except when they remember it, they also hear "Jeff", or whatever name their brain gave the scratch originally.

So, for anyone reading this what do ya think?

Possible names for this syndrome:

• Adam and Eve Syndrome Taken
• Earthsea Syndrome # seems to be good. Maybe you guys can think of a better one.

I'm rather excited to write in my blog again.(soon)

I sadly don't have time now, or until this quarter ends, however, I believe I can work writing in my blog into my schedule. And most of all, writing in my actual entertainment blogs, not just this one. My Today I learned blog an my Let's Consider still get a pretty good amount of views. And that is with only a few post's. As I add more post's to them, more and more views come each day, from google searches and such. I hope to add many more post's to them, and see all the views they can get then.

The problem is, however, that this blog is very easy to write. They are not, I have to make sure what I write is interesting, and people want to share it, and people stay entertained. It's what they *deserve* if I hope to make any money off them. So, I need time to write in them.

My greatest hope is that eventually I will be able to put together a schedule where I make one post a week in each of them, I think that would be a massive improvement.

I *know* I could do it too. In fact, if I did not let myself get so behind, I would be able to do it *now*. But hopefully I will live and learn.

Look what I found out!

So I'm looking at my blogs and see that my Today I Learned blog still gets about 7 views a day, I was curious why, considering I only ever got to finishing one post (Though I swear I have like 3 in draft that I just need to finish up). And it terms out that they are from google searching. I look at the search term and there it was.

"Isaac Newton Ego"

I'm the top result on google for searching for those three words :D.

(Shown in incognito mode so google does not personalize the results.) 

A math test today.

In about a few min, I'm going to take a shower and then leave for school to take my math test. I feel pretty good about it actually. A lot of what we are doing in trig is just using concepts from geometry.

I *think* I can get an A. Anyway, wish me luck.


In other news, I installed Chrome Nanny, to block my from reddit and other offending sites, really I would like to only spend my time working, forget about TheLibrary or any other projects in my mind, and instead of going to reddit, I should at *least* be writing in this blog, because at least this can help me a bit.

Not so much *this* blog at least, but, my Let's Consider and Today I learned blog can, If I actually really tried, I feel I could make a decent income by writing in them.

Well, I'm off, bye.


EDIT: I felt I did good, I did have to guess on one problem because of time, but I was very calm throughout the test. I think I got an A.

A procrastinatory eater

I'm procrastinating right now, so I figure I might as well do something a little constructive with that time and write in my blog. Hopefully, after writing this, my damn mind will focus on math, and study.

Before this, I was procrastinating by reading up on any new legend of korra news on the avatar subreddit.
(And as I go the the tab to get the link for you guys, I had to fight the urge to click new and read any new posts. I did succeed though, however. )

Anyway, as far as the title. It is based on this observation. I am here, sitting in the De Anza computer center, with my book right next to me, and I am trying to make myself work. As I sit still, fighting with my own mind, I notice that I have the urge to go to get some food. "I Just ate", I think to myself. And I realize that the non-logical side of my brain, in a genius effort to get to keep procrastinating, caused me to be hungry. I then look back, and realize that it has done this *alot* recently. So, while I don't eat while I'm sad, and I'm happy about that, it seems that I do eat whenever I have something big to do that I am procrastinating on.

"Oh, James, that is just eating from stress" (Lets assume you tell me this)

No, it's not.

There are many more stressful situations, such as during a test, or or not being able to figure out some problem, or meeting some new people, or waiting for an upcoming event. I *never* feel unnaturally hungry in those situations, it is only when I am specifically trying to avoid doing something.

So there you go, a procrastinatory eater.

I'll leave you guys with this quote,

"procrastination is sort of like the unfortunate offspring of a situation where both low self-esteem and striving for perfection exist together" [1]

So, there it is, my post. I suppose I feel a bit better now,

I think I'll get a bite to eat.

CITATIONS:
1.http://healthygirl.org/2010/05/11/procrastination-station/